During this interview I wanted to make everything as laid back as possible. I didn’t want Ben to think I was interrogating him, but rather talking as a friend. We sat on his couch and watched the Mariners play the Twins in a long and drawn out baseball game. We talked and laughed for a bit before I decided it was the right time to start asking about what shaped him into who he is today.
The very first thing I asked about was his work environment. He explained how working at the same place for 30 years can be extremely repetitive, but also quite rewarding. As I learned from the last interview, he is a pretty introverted person, and really only talks to other people or his coworkers when they talk to him. He laughed and joked about how he is the oldest one there and how all the young coworkers who he doesn’t talk to find him very intimidating. “Honestly, I am a nice guy, but I don’t talk unless someone starts a conversation with me, so I guess that makes me scary. I have had some of my buddies there tell me the others are scared to come near me.” he explained when I asked what his relationship was like with his coworkers. Being a large man, approximately 6’2′, and built of solid muscle with a “resting bitch face” (as he described it) can definitely lead to people staying away from him. He doesn’t mind though. “I enjoy working alone, and the only time I ask for someone to work with me is when I need them cause it is a two person job.” Ben explained how he has the most knowledge there, so he gets frequent calls when he is at home about how to do something correctly, which annoys him because “my weekends are my weekends, I don’t like to be bothered.”
He explains how on Mondays (he has Sundays and Mondays off from work) he spends all day with his granddaughter, who is only 5 years old. He explains how getting to spend time with her and seeing how her mind works to solve problems is the best part of his week. “I like to observe. When we are playing outside I like to sit back and watch her run around and play. It is crazy to see how her mind works and how much it has grown.” Throughout the conversation I could tell that he enjoyed talking about his granddaughter. He was proud of her, and explained how she is one of the smartest kids he has ever known, “however I could just be biased, but I strongly believe she is a kid genius.” While talking to Ben about work and his granddaughter I came to the conclusion of a few different things. The first thing being is that he is proud that he is a role model to so many people, such as his coworkers, kids, and grand kids. When I asked him about it he acted very modest about it, he explained how he had worked the longest so of course he was going to know more, instead of taking pride and boasting about how he worked very hard to get to where he is now. Just by talking about these two things I learned that he is a very quite and modest man, but takes a lot of pride in his family.
The next thing I wanted to ask him about was his friendships. To this he responded, “I have no friends.” At first I felt sorry for bringing this topic up, but after talking for a bit of time I started to understand and grow fond of what he was talking about. He explained to me his concept of friendship. “See you have friends, acquaintances, and strangers. Friends are people you trust completely and have never done anything to harm your trust, acquaintances are people you know and talk to and maybe you were friends with at a certain point but they lost your trust, and strangers are people you don’t know.” He described how he had a lot of friends in high school and when he lived in Oregon, but since he moved up here, he lost a lot of those people. “I have my family, and that is all I need. Sure my wife and I don’t always get along, but I know I can trust her and she has always been there for me, so I know she is truly my life long best friend.” My heart absolutely melted with happiness when he said this. He explained how he didn’t need any “friends” he only needed his family and that was all. He was a simple man.
When I asked him if there was any certain point in his life that impacted the way that he saw life he responded and said that when his father died it changed his whole thinking on life. He explained how after the passing he became very aggressive and mean towards everyone. He turned to more drugs and alcohol instead of getting help. “That was the lowest point of my life. I don’t remember much of it but I am glad, because I don’t like thinking about it.” I told him that we didn’t have to talk about anything that he didn’t want to, and he just responded with “okay” and continued to talk about his father. He explained how he was hard working, and very modest. Ben said that he always wanted to be like him, which explains his modesty when talking about everything else. He said he also learned all of his political views from his dad, such as his pro-gun rights view point.
I decided to start to wrap up the interview at this point and asked him how he perceived the world and what he thought about what direction our world was going in. To this question he didn’t have much to say. He explained how he thought a lot of the generations were too self centered and focused on themselves to see what was going wrong with the planet. He expressed his feelings about global warming and how nobody was doing anything to stop it. “As long as my kids make a positive impact on others and don’t do anything stupid, I will be alright. I just want to know I raised them right and taught them how to treat others correctly.” I asked him what he was most proud of in his kids and he explained dhow they were hardworking and genuinely cared about others. He explained how all three of his kids were very smart, and made him proud every single day. He explained how it was humbling knowing that he knew he did good enough to raise his kids, and he was also proud of himself for getting through his hardships and working through everything by himself. When I tried to turn the topic back on global warming he laughed and said, “What does it matter to me? I’ll be dead before anything happens anyways.
Throughout the past two interviews I have learned this; Ben Sullivan is an amazing human being and I am so lucky to have the honor of knowing and sharing his story. Growing up around 4 sisters and a very rough mom, then losing his father, he went through a lot of hardship, but definitely came out on top. He taught me many things during these two interviews and that is to always be modest and humble about your achievements, because nobody likes someone that brags about everything, I learned that family is always going to be your closest friends, you don’t always need other people around you to be happy and you definitely don’t need a large friend group to be excepted, and the last thing I learned is hard work pays off. Everything that you work towards will eventually pay off. I am so grateful for this experience and being able to talk with Mr. Sullivan, and even if I never got to talk to him again, I am grateful for the things that he has taught me.
As the baseball came to a close, I thanked him for sharing his story and talking to me for so long. He thanked me for listening and explained how it felt good sharing his stories and experiences with someone. as I went to walk out of the house I turned around to say one last goodbye and Ben gave me a big bear hug and I learned one more thing before leaving. Just because someone looks big and scary, doesn’t mean they are, it just means that they have a story. As I walked out the door, the last thing he said to me was, “I really enjoyed our time talking Taylor, and I hope that you can learn from my mistakes and take something from my jumbling rambling about my life.” All I could say is that I learned more in the two hours that we talked, than in the past five years of my life.